Age is meaningless. Passion matters.

I turned fifty a few months back. Yep, one half of a century old. What’s more is that over the last year I’ve found my passion – filmmaking. The weird thing is, it was there all along – I just didn’t see it; a forest for the trees kind of situation if you will.

I wish I could tell you that when I was a small boy the first time I walked into a movie theatre I fell in love with cinema. I can’t. That would be a lie.

The first time I went to a theatre it was the Capital on the Lake Shore in New Toronto. I was six or seven I think. I saw a Godzilla flick and when a three-headed monster hatched from a giant egg, I freaked out. I started crying and yelling to go home. So, one of the older kids took me home and he was seriously pissed off.

I’ve loved film for a long time, but it was writing that ultimately gave me the push in the movie-making direction. I’ve always been a storyteller and realized that those stories were pictures in my mind. I wrote a lot of what I saw. Mini-movies in my mind. From there my writing turned to screenplays and that’s when the realization of the ‘system’ took hold.

Sometimes passion is just not enough.

The film industry has always had gatekeepers. Those people whose job it is to filter through what they believe is or isn’t right for the industry. I’m sure they use a checklist of key words like ‘marketable’ and ‘demographics’ and ‘revenues’ in their decision making. No matter my passion regarding a project, it never seemed to be good enough. Oh, there was a lot of ‘this is fantastic’ and ‘love it’ and ‘let’s get this made’ but it was truly smoke and mirrors. Really what they were saying was ‘no’. And, I’d much rather have heard that than the crap they peddled; I’m a rip the bandage off quickly kind of guy.

So what is a fifty year old guy, living far from Hollywood, not connected to anyone in the ‘biz’, to do?

What are you waiting for?

I chose to make my films myself. The journey from writing scripts to having a feature on the big screen is one taken in small steps over a long period of time. Age be damned, passion is what matters. And believe me when I say, I have many fears to face and will die trying to get that feature made.

One step at a time.

I’ve got a few short films under my belt now and it’s abundantly clear to me that my strength is in the writing. I feel so damned good when an actor or producer or anyone for that matter, tells me how much they like my work. I’m open to having my work critiqued since correcting the mistakes I make certainly makes me a stronger writer but, positives always give a welcomed boost. Writing  wouldn’t be a problem for my next film.

I realized quickly that I needed a director or photography, someone who knows the nuances of the gear they use or the gear I can provide. I wanted a particular look for my next film and now I know it’ll look as good on the screen as it does in my head. My passion for the project has to drive my decision making; what’s best for this film is paramount. This is not about me, it’s all about the end product – the film.

Add great actors willing to give their time and talent along with a crew that works with the same passion and you’ve got the makings of a great film.

Passion is essential but so is coin!

It truly is the best time to be an indie filmmaker. One of the reasons is crowdfunding. I get to reach out to people and talk about my film – my passion. This is the best way I can think of to get people interested in my film. No longer do people read about an upcoming film and line up to see it. They are part of the passion, they’re part of my passion – they’re in my passion network! We all get to be involved in making a great film. I get goose bumps when I think about it.

This is an exciting time for me and I needed to share that. I’ve written Rock and a Hard Place and will direct it. I’ve met wonderful people who share my passion. I’ll be reaching out to hundreds of people to share my passion.

The hell with my age, let my passion flow.



What’s In A Name?

It’s a big deal, the title of a film, short or feature. How many times have you picked up a book because you liked the title? Think of how often you hear a title of a film and your ears perk up with curiosity or excitement. Think of what happens when you hear or see a title that has the opposite affect. It’s my first opportunity to connect with an audience and it’s one I take very seriously.

My decision made on my next film, it’s time to edit and rewrite that script until it shines. I was going through it again last night and suddenly realized that I didn’t like the working title, Injustice For All. It’s a negative, it’s formal and it really doesn’t say what’s at the core of the film. So, I kept editing and it hit me. It was clear and made sense and was familiar to people. I turned back to the title page of the script and wrote, Rock And A Hard Place.

ImageThe name not only describes the dilemma facing every character in the film, it’s also easy to digest. It speaks to the heart of the film.

Our justice system doesn’t always seem to work, at least not from where most of us sit, on the outside of it. We see people getting slaps on the wrist for what are serious crimes and it’s upsetting. I’ve written several pieces, both fiction and non, that address this issue. This is the one piece that I feel opens a discussion on justice or the lack of it and also entertains people with a gritty story.

A couple experienced a terrifying home invasion years ago and arrive home to find the man responsible for that crime tied up in their basement. What do they do?

Rock And A Hard Place. Yes?


Of the three projects that I’m considering, all are definitely possible to shoot. One thing that I have to consider is when I can shoot them. Given that two have the option of shooting in any season, they have to be given priority. But which of those two should be first up?

I’ve decided on a script tentatively titled, Injustice For All. It stands at fourteen minutes and will use the talents of five actors. Aside from the obvious timing, why this script over the other? Location, location, location; I’ll only need three locations. Length not withstanding, this should make the shoot a lot easier; no moving people and gear. This will make the shoot less stressful for actors and crew – including yours truly. The cinematographer will only have three locations to light and that will definitely make life easier for them.

This is not going to be simple. No film ever is. I’ve tried to think ahead and mitigate any problems that will occur. The next phase is going to be difficult – finding talent to help me bring this story to life.

Fingers crossed. Stay tuned.Image


Every film I make takes me one step closer to my ultimate goal of directing my first feature film. Though it certainly may not have been evident between shorts one and two, I stretched myself and learned even more about my capabilities, or the lack of them. That progression will always be my aim with each short I attempt. My next certainly will push me in new directions, the most important of which is finding the right people to the jobs that I so foolishly attempted in my first two films. I will be relying on a cinematographer for my next film and I’m hoping to fill other key roles as well.

Before I can make any of that happen I must choose my next project. You’d think that would be easy, right? So did I but I found a few barriers in the way of making a decision.


One of the things I had to do when writing scripts was take off my producer’s hat; I found myself changing the story because of costs or availability or any number of restrictions. All that did was restrict my creativity and storytelling abilities. I needed to tell the story first and worry about the production later.

I’ve completed three scripts for short films ranging from eight to fourteen minutes. Time is not a constraint, though I do prefer a shorter film so, if I choose the longer script I expect there will be some trimming.

One of the considerations for my choice is cost. How much will the budget have to be in order to complete the film. I’ve made rough estimates and of course the script that will cost the most to produce is the story I want to tell. The funny thing is it’s the shortest of the three scripts.

I’ve started trimming down some costly elements all with an eye on maintaining the story. For instance, I had a late 1500s ballroom dance scene with ten dancers, two of whom were my leads. Now, I’ve rewritten the scene to be just the leads (a more intimate dance) and moved it outdoors with one violinist (as opposed to an orchestra or quartet). The actors/dancers were really not the biggest cost in that scene; I’ve gone from ten actors in period formal wear to two actors in period garb that I’ve yet to decide on. And, one musician instead of four or more.

I’ll try to get as much free anything as possible but I know there will be costs involved. Having said that, what was looking like a $100,000 film is going to cost a fraction of that. There is still much to be decided, but I know now what story I want to tell and thanks to putting on a creative producer’s hat, it’s possible.

Stay tuned.

Movie Makers Are Movie Watchers

Learning by Osmosis

I’m a glass is half full kind of guy so, when I watch films I tend to comment on the good rather than the bad. Of course, we learn from our mistakes, so don’t completely ignore what you think is wrong with a film. The bottom line is that every film has a potential to teach you something. This is not a new sentiment. In fact, I’m sure I read it somewhere when I first started thinking of writing screenplays.

What are new are the Special Features that come with your movie purchases. Where once scene searches, photo galleries and trailers were considered special features, now these extras are loaded with goodies for every filmmaker to watch and learn.

The Blu-ray transfer for Jaws was brilliant; it’s the best transfer I’ve seen. Along with a classic film that changed cinema forever, you also get a host of extras. Be sure to watch them all but pay close attention to The Making Of Jaws; it’s a look inside an early indie film. If nothing else, it will definitely inspire you.

Monsters was a good movie until I watched the extra, Behind the Scenes of Monsters; then it became an amazing film. It is a blueprint for guerrilla filmmaking. Director/Writer Gareth Edwards did an incredible job. He would see one thing with his naked eye and create another with his creative eye – all on the fly. Watch the featurette and be awed. Highly recommended.monsters

I recently viewed Safe House and enjoyed the film. There were jaw dropping moments at seeing some extraordinary shots and sequences. I couldn’t wait to delve into the extras. There were quite a few but those that stuck out were on the fight scenes. I loved the step-by-step approach they took on creating these action-packed yet intimate scenes. They were a real eye-opener on filming hand-to-hand combat. Be sure to check them out.

J.J. Abrams’ Super 8 instantly jumped into my top ten; kids, making a zombie film, on Super 8, aliens, the military – how could it not be one of my favourites? Plus, the Blu-ray came with great extras including, The Dream Behind Super 8 and The 8mm Revolution. Though I didn’t walk away after watching these filled with new information on filmmaking, I did come away inspired. I highly recommend this film and its extras.

Super 8

What other films had extras worth a watch: District 9, Kick Ass, Star Trek, Star Wars, The Amazing Spider-man, Lord Of The Rings Trilogy and many more. Though extras are slimming down on many Blu-rays, I still see them as a great opportunity to get behind the scenes on a film and learn from those who’ve gone before me.

I’d love to hear about any other extras worth watching. If you’ve got a favourite, please share it here.

It Started A Long Time Ago

But It Begins Right Now

As I mentioned in my first post, this site is all about my journey taking a screenplay to the big screen (if that’s even possible). Even if I fail miserably, you’ll be along for the ride. If someone learns from my misadventures, then it’s all worth it.

I started this journey a long time ago when I purchased a book in the late 80s by Syd Field called The Screenwriter’s Workbook. I read that thing a dozen times but never tried my hand at a script. That is until my wife Sandy found the book and asked why I hadn’t written a screenplay. That was the beginning and here I am, many scripts behind me and one that I must see through to the screen.

My first step to make that happen was to take a script for a short film and shoot it – that’s right, make a movie. I wrote a short zombie film, Happy Birthday, You’re a Zombie, and with the help of some wonderful friends and family, shot it and uploaded it to Youtube.

I learned a great deal from my first effort.

Friends and family are priceless: When friends and family (my wife and daughter) committed to help then showed up on time and ready to go, it was the greatest feeling in the world. It gave me confidence and it let me know that these truly were people who wanted to be there for me. They wanted to help, to be a part of what I was trying to do. It inspired me to do my very best.

Lighting is the bane of a filmmaker’s existence: Shoot in one direction using settings gleaned from the available light and the shot looks great. Turn the camera around to shoot in the opposite direction and the shot looks like hell. You are constantly checking to ensure consistency in your lighting and it is a hell of a chase.

You can never have enough lighting: I MacGyvered a light that I never used, but I was so happy that it was there just in case I needed it. I had four lights available and I would have been comfortable, and happy, with even more.

Coverage – and I don’t mean by the press: In a time when digital means you’ll never waste film, there should never be a shot missed. I still kick myself for not getting more (and better) coverage of the amazing zombie makeup by Karen Dance. I may never have used it in the film, but that doesn’t mean I couldn’t use it in a reel or that she may have wanted some footage to use on her reel. There were a few instances during edits that I wanted to reassemble the team and shoot just a few more angles, a bit more footage.

Creativity doesn’t stop at the script: My creativity has to extend beyond the idea, script and shooting to problem solving. The aforementioned lights were one such dilemma. I had no budget for lights and used a 500W halogen work light indoors with a reflector to help extend and/or diffuse it. The Dollar Store is a lifesaver. Home Depot should be renamed Problem Solving Depot. I created my own dolly using two eight foot long channels laid on the ground side-by-side and used string to pull a $17 Walmart skateboard across them, the wheels of which I swapped out for Rollerblade wheels. I was forced to think on my feet and come up with affordable solutions to what seemed like problems only lots of money could solve.

You’ll never get the jail for asking: My parents always said, “You’ll never get the jail for asking.” They were right. Sometimes it’s hard to pluck up the courage and ask your friends, loved ones and even strangers to help you with your film projects. I took my parents’ advice and asked a lot of people for help because truly, the worst thing they could say was no. No one gets hurt. No one goes to jail. And, I’d never hold a grudge against anyone for saying no. But, now I’d beat myself up if I didn’t ask.

You’d think after learning all of this valuable information I’d easily roll into short film number two, Upon Reflection. Apparently I have a bit of a thick skull and it’ll take a few tries for lessons to sink in.

So, what did I learn from shooting my second short film, Upon Reflection?

Know your strengths: This experience drove home that my wheelhouse is writing; I was happy that everyone to whom I showed the script was impressed by it, even those performers who turned it down had praise for the script. So, I need to find strong people to bolster my weaknesses or at least in those areas in which I’ve yet to build experience.

Stretch: Reach beyond the familiar. In the case of this short film I reached out to actors I’d never met before; people who have been in stage or film productions. I’ve never been accused of being shy, but I’ve never been in a position to approach actors, especially asking them to work for free. I was thrilled with all of my actors; they clearly love what they do and they’re damned good at it. I can rely on that.

Never take rejection personally: It was clear that not every actor I approached was at my ‘no budget’ level. Many of the actors professed to no longer working ‘gratis’. I certainly would never hold that against anyone. There are always legitimate reasons why people may not be able to participate in a project. Some actors just had scheduling problems. In the end it was the best thing that could have happened because I ended up asking Peter Campbell, who originally was to play the lead detective, to take the lead of the man and his reflection. He was amazing! As were all of my performers.

Never fall in love with a shot: I made the mistake of falling in love with certain shots and locations. I saw a large bathroom for the main scene and searched high and low for it. There was nothing available without taking the route of permits, insurance and paperwork. I stuck with that vision far too long which delayed the shoot for months; that and the lack of a committed actor for the lead. I also saw a crane/jib shot in the production and no matter how I tried to figure out away to do it – rent or DIY – I couldn’t justify the cost. Still, I hung on to that shot and it cost me something more precious than money – it cost me time.

If I ever again fall in love with a shot, I’ll make sure the calculation is done more rapidly; either find a way to shoot it or quickly move on to an alternative. Hell, I’d cut out shots before I’d stall myself like that again.

A table read is a must: I lost control of my shoot. Before shoot day I finalized the script then created a shot list (I’m not a storyboard kind of guy). I stick to my shot list like a lifeline, that is, I did, until this shoot. I was challenged about many things, not the least of which was actor motivations. I saw this as a simple script to screen jump but I failed to see it from an actor’s point of view. That is one of the most important lessons I learned on the set of Upon Reflection; every actor needs to know what happened to their character leading up to any shot. I answered many questions I hadn’t considered while writing the script. To be candid, it threw me. I wasn’t prepared to be peppered with characterization questions. Time was fleeting and my shot list was abandoned in order to get the shoot completed on time.

That was a mistake. A very big mistake. I failed to complete many shots and that left me scrambling in post to make up for them. There were places that needed close ups, one shots of a two shot conversation, blank spaces that were absolutely critical for the effects I needed – missed because I wasn’t prepared for what wasn’t written on the page. That will never happen again because every shoot from this day forward will start with a table read; a gathering of the actors to sit and go through the script so they can ask any questions they have before we get on set.

Wearing too many hats gives you a headache: In keeping with my budgetary restraints, I wore many hats in the making of Upon Reflection: writer, director, cinematographer, camera operator, sound, lighting, props, continuity and editor. That was the biggest mistake of all, taking on so many roles that I couldn’t give them my full attention. My goal is to direct a feature that I’ve written. To do that, my focus has to be on the writing and directing. Upon Reflection was written to push me on both of those fronts but fell short because I took on too much responsibility.

If you’re reading this and are looking to gain experience in lighting, cinematography, camera work, editing…anything other than writing and directing, then stay tuned for word on my next project. Trust me, if you work for food, I’ll be needing you.

That’s a lot of lessons for two short films. Plus, I must realize that I’m a producer whether I want to be or not. Finding talent, gear, props, costumes, locations…so much to do on a film that it truly feels like it never ends. Well, it does. Film number two is done and I’m working on my third.

The journey continues. Stay tuned.